Lies for the liars.

Just got home.
Almost scared some factory worker to death 'cause I was walking behind him & not making much noise. Prolly thought I was some mugger out to get some loot from him.

Anyways, I've been thinking lately.
Life for me isn't the same as before. I've let myself rot too much for far too long.
I haven't been honest to ppl around me & most importantly, I haven't been honest to myself.
Gyea, situation in the family ain't the one I would wish for but I can only do that much. I can no longer use it as an excuse to fall further & let it take control of my life. As much as I love my family, I can only pray that it gets better. & I have faith that it will.

Its so much easier to let everything just crumble down with me going down with it. So much so that sinning seems to be almost a norm.
But that's not the way I want it to be. I know for sure that life's has much more purpose than I can imagine. I may not know what is it now but I'm that damn sure that its for a better ending.
& all this starts right.....now.




"It's when i seem to lose the only thing I care.
I realized and saw its light in the night.
I was beside a sparkling source of life, but sometimes I still saw my death behind that smile.

I'll be better with no remorse, but can I stop seeing you everywhere?
Run away, things are getting worst.
I can't stop believing you'll be there.

Lies, I used to understand them.
And all this time, I never comprehend them."